So I spent the night at his place. He initially assured me that he had condoms in the house but as it turned out, he was lying and eventually we had unprotected sex.
I was scared through the whole experience, well knowing that his past lifestyle was full of adventure with girls.
Ever since, I have lost my peace, I cannot sleep, I’m always lost in thought and I no longer enjoy the company of my friends.
I need help to get back my life back to normal.
This sounds like a very painful, emotional experience; however you can choose to go about it positively and make a difference in your life.
What you need is to first of all appreciate the fact that much as you had no control over what happened to you on that day, the power to make the difference about the future is in your hands.
Secondly, work at forgiving yourself over whatever happened because blame towards self and your boyfriend will keep you depressed.
Thirdly, seek medical help about how to handle this window period until a confirmatory test is done to find out whether you were infected or not.
Also test for other STIs that you could have contracted during this experience as well as pregnancy so as to free your mind and body of unnecessary stress.
Meanwhile, reach out to your boyfriend; while you may think it’s your problem, he too may be going through the same.
This will enable you to support each other in this situation. Focus on rebuilding your lives and relationship while working towards protecting each other against any other future eventualities that may affect your personal lives and relationships.
Lastly pay attention to the inner mental talk which keeps you hooked on this experience; while you carefully challenge the negative affirmations that come with it.
This will help you to keep your self- esteem high, and strengthen your relationship with your boyfriend and friends; remember, life must go on.